The Mini Loser - One Pound at a Time

Food Addiction

2011-01-25T14:22:00.000-06:00

I read an interesting article today at sparkpeople.com.

The part that stood out the most to me was this:

"For some of us at least, what we eat may play a big role in how much trouble we have sticking to a healthy diet and achieving or maintaining a healthy weight. It's not just a matter of how many calories there are in these "hyperpalatable" foods, but also the effects they have on our ability to stop eating when we want and/or moderate the amount of particular trigger foods we include in our diet. This could mean that susceptible people may need to avoid certain trigger foods completely, rather than trying to moderate their intake--just like an alcoholic has to avoid all alcohol."

Whenever you diet, you already read that you can "splurge" every once in awhile. This may not be true for everyone. While there are some foods that are an okay treat (frozen yogurt, for example), highly processed foods or fast food (what they are referring to here as hyperpalatable) can have a trigger affect similar to that of drugs to a drug addict.

Pay attention to not only how your food tastes, but how it feels. If you want more the minute you put your fork down, it's a good sign you've found a trigger food!

I Know...Better

2011-01-23T16:10:00.000-06:00

*I started the Nutrisystem weight loss program this weekend. Here is what I posted on my first blog post for my Nutrisystem profile:

"I'm no stranger to weight loss; or to weight gain, for that matter. In fact, I think I've got such a good handle on the whole "yo-yo" process I could practically teach a seminar.

I know all about calories and exercise. I know the better foods to eat. I know that I feel a million times better when I eat them. The gym is a cathartic experience for me. It's the one place where I feel truly at peace. The one place where the only thing that matters is the adrenaline; where I can really clear my head.
And yet, somehow, I seem to make choices that don't fall in like with what I know. In 2008, through my own sheer willpower (and a lot of exercise and diet changes), I lost 45 pounds. I trimmed my size 14 body down to a 6. I felt amazing. I felt strong and confident. I felt like nothing could take that feeling away. I felt like that feeling alone was enough to keep me motivated to continue to exercise and eat right. Somehow, though, it wasn't.

I felt myself start to slip. I was excellent at making excuses. I was busy. We were in the middle of a big move, I didn't have time to cook. We had to move further from the gym, but I could afford to trim back to 3 days a week...which dwindled down to none.

It was slow, but eventually all my good habits were just old habits. And all my old habits resurfaced. Here I am, 18 months later hiding my size 6 clothes to make room for my size 14 ones to return. I've gain back every single one of those 45 pounds I lost. And, honestly, I'm not very nice to myself about it. I knew better. I let it happen. I let down that girl, the one who felt so empowered and so strong. I continued to punish myself with binges and excuses. I didn't feel worth of the effort it would take to get on track again. All that work - again - for a girl who was just going to manage to mess it all up - again.

And it's at this rock bottom point when I realized that I wasn't ready to do it by myself. Putting me in charge of my eating habits and my work out schedule wasn't going to work. I am too mad at me. I want me to suffer. After all, I knew better.

So, that's when I made the call to Nutrisystem. I needed help. I didn't need sympathy or words of comfort (all of which my husband lovingly offers). I needed someone to tell me what to eat and when. I needed someone to tell me to get over myself; to tell me to stop punishing myself for struggling. To remind me that life didn't end when I gained back that weight, that I have years and years left to get this whole weight maintenance thing right. Nutrisystem had those qualities built in.

So, here I am. Day 2 and I already feel better then I have in months. Because I am awesome no matter what I weigh. And I never should have put myself through so much guilt which just served to hold me back from achieving my goals. And now I know better."

Missing

2010-11-11T09:50:00.002-06:00

Hey all,

Sorry I've been missing the past few days. It's been a doozy of a life. Between moving, getting sick, work being crazy - I just haven't had the time or energy to bust out a blog.

Never fear, though, I'm still here. Still working hard. Still eating yummy, delicious food (I made chicken and eggplant casserole last night - delish!).

I wanted to share with your a couple of secret diet killers. Calories really are the key to the whole weight loss debacle, but there are some hidden enemies that can really hold back weight loss progress:

1) "Fat Free" Is fat free a better option then not? Usually, yes. But don't let the words fat free elude you into thinking you are choosing a lower calorie or healthier option. To make up for flavor lost in fat you will regularly see increased sodium or sugar content. Read the box and compare to the regular version before you buy. There's really nothing wrong with a little fat.

2) Canned soup. It's delicious. It's typically low-cal (thank you Progresso!). It's PACKED with sodium. I'm not sure why they have to put so much sodium in a can of soup - probably something to do with preservative effects. Always opt for the low sodium soups (even then, the numbers can be baffling). Better yet, make your own. Soup recipes can be found in every shape size and a form and typically just require a little chopping and simmering. Remember, though, if your recipe calls for chicken (or beef)broth, grab a low sodium version of that as well.

3) Low calories per serving. Many boxes will tell you how low calorie a serving of their cereal, crackers, cookies, whatever it is have. But remember - all servings are not made equal. 100 calories of Cheerios is a whole cup of the stuff. That's great! 100 calories of Oreo cookies is only 1 cookie. If you are going to have crackers or cookies, make sure you read carefully and portion out your servings so you don't accidentally down 500 calories without thinking.

Those are just a few hidden diet disasters. I'll share more later.

Food Journal:

Breakfast: Smoothie - 6 strawberries, 3 ounces low fat yogurt, 1 large tbsp protein powder and crystal light strawberry juice (210 cals)

Depressing Breakfast

2010-11-05T09:26:00.004-05:00

So, my life is kind of a shambles right now. Each room in my house is full of boxes. Most of them are open now, gaping at me, ready to spit out all the CRAP that is in them. All the CRAP I just want to throw away, but know I actually want and actually use, I just can't imagine WHY.

So, anyway, given the current state of things, I haven't had a decent meal in days. This morning was no exception. We're running out of the house at the last minute and, par for the course this week, I stop in at the Cheetah Mart by work to grab a Diet Dew. I ate my last yogurt yesterday, so I have to hunt down something in the Mart for breakfast. I peruse the dairy area looking for something high protein and low cal. I find the winner. Muscle Milk Light. I read the bottle. 20 grams of protein: excellent. Less than 200 calories: perfecto.

As I'm drinking said muscle milk, I read the bottle. It says, "If you enjoy feeling dull, overweight and lethargic put this bottle down and pick up that donut and prepare to cry yourself to sleep on the couch again..."

Seriously? I think my breakfast just made me depressed.

Hope your Friday is great!

Food Journal:

Breakfast: Muscle Milk Light, chocolate flavored (170 cals)

Snack #1: 12 carrots and Carl Budig sliced turkey (125 cals)

Lunch: Progresso Light Santa Fe Chicken soup and 1/4 protein bar (200 cals)

Snack #2: 1/4 cup edamame and 1 6-ounce low fat yogurt (130 cals)

Food Only

2010-11-04T16:14:00.004-05:00

I don't have time to be witty today. My apologies.

Food Journal:

Breakfast: Nutrilite Protein Bar (240 cals)

Snack #1: 12 baby carrots and a cheese stick (115 cals)

Lunch: 1 Taco Bell regular taco al fresco and side of pinto beans (250 cals)

Snack #2: 1/4 cup edamame and 1 pkg carl budig turkey (140 cals)

Dinner: Porkchops and mixed fruit (300 cals)

Snack #3: 2/3 of a protein bar (200 cals)

Total Calories: 1245

So busy!

2010-11-03T09:50:00.006-05:00

I know my calorie counts the last couple of days have been low. I'm working on it. But, it's hard.

That sounds weird, I know.

But with all the moving busy-ness and work I haven't been able to do my normal meal planning/shopping and stopping at the gas station for diet soda and then attempting to find something suitable for nourishment (usually resulting in yogurt) means I have a hard time getting enough calories in.

I'll try to do better today.

Food Journal:

Breakfast: 1 6-ounce low fat yogurt and 1 medium apple (160 cals)

Snack #1: 12 baby carrots and a cheese stick (115 cals)

Lunch: 1 can Campbell's Healthy Request Teriyaki Chicken and Noodle Soup and 10 mini saltine crackers (250 cals)

Snack #2: 1/4 cup edamame and 1 6-ounce low fat yogurt (130 cals)

Dinner: Subway Egg and Cheese Flatbread (about 10 inches) with tomato and spinach (480 cals)

Total Calories: 1135

I'll have the beans. No beans.

2010-11-02T09:42:00.005-05:00

So, last night Husband and I had the final walk through on our home we are purchasing (today!). Our schedules for the next few days mainly revolve around work and moving, so we will be grabbing some quick (okay, fast) food. Last night Taco Bell was the winner. ((For all you dieters/calorie counters out there, Taco Bell is one fast food place I recommend. They have their "Al fresco" items that replace cheese with salsa and start at 150 calories)). I ordered a hard shell taco al fresco and a side of their pinto beans and cheese. "No cheese," I requested.

So, the hub and I are sitting waiting for our food when I happen to glance over at the receipt for our order number. Instead, my eye falls to this:

I turn to Geoff and ask the natural question. "Does that say Pintos and Cheese, minus the beans?" We look at each other with big smiles. We figured the guys in back preparing the food would realize I hadn't just requested a side of cheese. We hoped.

We were wrong. The boy handing me my food asked me, "Did you mean beans and cheese with no beans?" "No," I replied. "I figured," he mumbled as he pulls something out of the bag and tosses it in the trash can and calls back for a side of beans.

Next time I'll just ask for the styrofoam packaging.

Food Journal:

Breakfast: Smoothie - 1 cup frozen fruit, 3-ounces low fat yogurt, 1 (large) tablespoon protein powder, crystal light juice (200 cals)

Snack #1: 12 baby carrots and a cheese stick (115 cals)

Lunch: 1 6-ounce yogurt and 1/4 cup edamame (130 cals)

Snack #2: 1 grap Blow-pop (60 cals)

Dinner: 6-inch Subway turkey sandwich (270 cals) To be fair, I bought a 6 inch, but I just didn't want it all.

Snack #3: Popcorn (200 cals)

Total Calories: 975 - I know, I know...

Manic Monday

2010-11-01T11:23:00.004-05:00

Well, it was a rough weekend. Starting on Friday I was tempted with candy and donuts and cake and pie and all kinds of scary treats.

I'm happy to inform you that I abstained and was rewarded for my good choices this morning with a 3 pound loss this week! For a total of 8 and a half pounds lost in three weeks! It feels magical!

Hope your first day of November is excellent also.

Food Journal:

Breakfast: Salsa Eggs and 1 slice turkey bacon (150 cals)

Snack #1: Cheese stick and 12 baby carrots (115 cals)

Lunch: Strawberry Cottage Double (130 cals)

Snack #2: 1/4 cup edamame and 1 6-ounce low fat yogurt (130 cals)

Dinner: Taco Bell hard shell taco al fresco and side of pinto beans (270 cals)

Snack #3: Air popped popcorn and two big marshmallows (200 cals)

Total Calories: 995 (This is bad, I know. I'll do better tomorrow)

No secrets

2010-10-30T10:12:00.004-05:00

Well, friends, it's the dreaded Saturday. Saturday is always a little scary. Especially when the hub is away for most of it. That means everything I eat is just between me and dogs. And Rom is easy to buy of with treats. :)

However, I've got this little blog to keep me honest. So I won't let you down.

I hope you can all be strong this weekend, too. Have a piece of Halloween candy or two - but don't let a day dedicated to candy lead you to feel any regret or guilt on Monday. It's just a day like any other.

Food Journal:

Breakfast: 3/4 cup cottage cheese with 1/2 cup assorted fruit (180 cals)

Lunch: 1 cheese stick, 1 pkg Carl Budig Pastrami, 1 pkg Lipton "Cup o' Soup" (200 cals)

Dinner: 1/2 cup pulled pork and 1 small serving eggplant lasagna (350 cals)

Snack #1: 1/2 roll wafer candy and air popped popcorn (260 cals)

Total Calories: 990 cals

Friday Came!

2010-10-29T10:28:00.003-05:00

Wow - I'm heading into my third weekend and still going strong. Halloween isn't gonna lead me astray. :)

Food Journal:

Breakfast: Smoothie - assorted frozen fruit, 3-ounces low fat yogurt, 1 large tablespoon protein powder, and crystal light juice (215 cals)

Snack #1: 12 baby carrots and a cheese stick (115 cals)

Lunch: Pumpkin Soup (200 cals)

Snack #2: 1/4 cup edamame and 6-oz low fat yogurt (130 cals)

Dinner: Eggplant Lasagna (350 cals)

Snack: 1 mini bag microwave popcorn and 1 100 calorie snack bar (200 cals)

Total Calories: 1210

Selfish

2010-10-28T09:11:00.004-05:00

I have been feeling a little sorry for myself the past couple days. I work really hard. I try to keep the dishes clean, food on the table, lose weight, keep messes to a minimum and in the middle of all that I'm trying to pack up everything we own, manage the finances, work full time, give my dogs the attention they deserve, be a good friend, a good blogger, and a good person. Sometimes being a woman feels like a bit of a thankless job.

I remember talking to my mom a couple weeks ago and reminding her of something I had learned (that I apparently forgot in the past few days). Sometimes, if I'm doing all the above mentioned duties for the thanks or appreciation or recognition of others, there's a good chance I'm gonna be disappointed. However, if I do them for myself, if I get a little selfish about it, then I can feel fulfilled by doing those things.

I like to have a clean home, I like to eat delicious food, I like my new house and want to pack up and get moved in over there, I like to be on top of our finances and make sure all the bills are paid, I like my job, I love my dogs and I enjoy playing with them. I like my friends and want to be a good friend back. I like to blog, it gives me an outlet and a way to share the silly happenstances of life. None of the tasks on my plate are tasks that I hate. Sometimes they pile up in a way that feels completely unmanageable, but that doesn't mean I can't still enjoy each of the tasks while I do it and stop expecting anyone else to jump up and down and tell me how great I am for being so on the ball. I just have to do it for me sometimes.

P.S. Dianne (mom) - When you come out for TG, you better believe I'll have all the Diet Coke you can drink, a Tiara and we'll go shopping together and we'll both get new handbags.

C - Did you make the egg cups? What did you think?

Food Journal:

Breakfast: Bacon Egg Cup: 1 egg, 1 slice bacon, mushrooms, green bell pepper, cheddar cheese (150 cals)

Snack #1: 12 baby carrots and a cheese stick (115 cals)

Lunch: Roasted Tomato and Cheddar "Pizza" (200 cals)

Snack #2: 1/4 cup edamame and 1 6-ounce low fat yogurt (130 cals)

Snack #3: 1 grape Blow-Pop (60 cals) Note: I read today that behind Jolly Ranchers, Blow Pops are the best candy choice you can make. And I just happened to have a drawer full of them!

Dinner: Eggplant Lasagna - I can't believe how big a serving of this stuff is! (350 cals)

Snack #4: Air popped popcorn (150 cals)

Total Calories: 1155

Just Food

2010-10-27T16:36:00.004-05:00

It's been a crazy day - but here's my food.

P.S. Jes asked for my bacon egg cup recipe yesterday, so it is now linked to that item on my food journal on yesterday's post. Check it out and MAKE IT. It's easy and delicious. Plus, you can make it the night before and it reheats in the morning really well. See what happens when you comment, my dear readers? You get what you want.

Food Journal:

Breakfast: Smoothie - 1/2 cup assorted frozen fruit, 3-ounces low fat yogurt, 1 (large) tablespoon protein powder, crystal light juice (200 cals)

Snack #1: 12 baby carrots and a cheese stick (125 cals)

Lunch: 1 and a half cups Pumpkin Soup (210 cals)

Snack #2: 6-ounces low fat yogurt and 1/4 cup edamame (130 cals)

Dinner: South Beach Diet Shepherd's Pie (320 cals)

Snack #3: Air Popped Popcorn and 100 cal snack bar (250 cals)

Total Calories: 1235

Planning Ahead

2010-10-26T09:16:00.008-05:00

This week has all the makings of a veritable disaster for me.

We move in as few as 7 days (as many as 10). I have a lot to do. The house is about 30-40% packed, so we've got to finish all that up.
Geoff's birthday is on Sunday, so I've got to finish all my shopping and planning for that.
We need to meet with a contractor (or two) about replacing our living room window with a door (to walk out to the deck we are having built next week).
Geoff has a camp-out with his scouts this weekend, so we need to make sure he's got everything he needs for that trip prepared.
All the while, we both work full time and need some good, healthy fuel to burn to keep us going during all of this mayhem.

So, yesterday I made my grocery list, like usual, but I made sure to choose meals that I could easily cook ahead of time and reheat. Last night, I put food first and prepared this week's meals so that I can focus on the rest of my "to do" for the remainder of the week. I cooked up some South Beach Diet Shepherd's Pie (always a crowd - and by crowd, I mean husband - pleaser) and some eggplant lasagna which smelled soooo good. I baked up bacon egg cups for breakfast and a quick and easy pumpkin soup for lunches.

So, try as it might, the stress and busy-ness that is life will not cause me to "fall off the wagon" so-to-speak.

"Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will." - Gandhi

P.S. S-I-L asked in my comments yesterday about "Just Bunches" cereal. It's my low-price replacement for granola. It has very little (if any) nutritional value, but I use just a sprinkle to give my parfaits some crunch, so I'd rather save a few bucks. It's made by post and it is a box full of just the bunches from Honey Bunches of Oats cereal. It's absolutely delicious.

Food Journal:

Breakfast: Bacon Egg "cup" - 1 egg, slice turkey bacon, onion, garlic, green bell pepper, mushrooms (150 cals)

Snack #1: 12 baby carrots and a cheese stick (125)

Lunch: Grilled Tomato and Cheddar Pizza and small tastes of the office chili cook-off contenders (280 cals)

Snack #2: 6-ounce low fat yogurt and 1/4 cup edamame (130 cals)

Dinner: Eggplant Lasagna (SOOOOO good) (380 cals)

Snack #3: Air Popped Popcorn (150 cals)

Totals Calories: 1215

Weighing in

2010-10-25T09:05:00.004-05:00

Well, it's Monday and you know what that means: time to weigh in.

I'm very happy to report another successful week! A 2 and a half pound loss to bring me to a total of 5 and a half pounds down in 2 weeks. Sweet!

Hope you all had a great weekend as well.

Food Journal:

Breakfast: Parfait - 6-ounces low fat yogurt, 2 strawberries, sprinkle "Just Bunches" cereal (120 cals)

Snack #1: 12 baby carrots and a cheese stick (115 cals)

Lunch: Subway 6-inch Turkey Sandwich with lettuce, tomatoes and mustard (280 cals)

Snack #2: 1 6-ounce low fat yogurt and 1/4 cup edamame (130 cals)

Dinner: South Beach Diet Shepherd's Pie (425 cals)

Snack #3: Small Microwave popcorn bag (100 cals)

Total Calories: 1170

Hello, Friday.

2010-10-22T09:39:00.006-05:00

Time sure seems to fly.

Time is an interesting thing. When you have no goals, time is scary. It looms and passes and sneaks away - leaving you with a heart full of "could haves" and a head full of "what ifs."

When you have goals, time is invigorating. With each passing moment, you feel full of the possibilities. Each moment is another moment to make decisions that will lead to that goal. You work harder, stronger, smarter and happier.

I'm going into my second weekend and thus getting ready to wrap up week 2 of my diet. It has really been great. I know I seemed a little cranky yesterday, but it was just honest. As great as it feels to be taking some action in my life, it's hard to forgive myself for mistakes I can't undo.

But I love to look back over the past couple of weeks and realize this life truth: You can't stop time from passing, but you can choose what you do with each moment. I am either going to gain weight or lose weight - it's up to me whether I use the days, and months, and years to turn into the person I want to be or if I let the time decide for me.

I choose goals. I choose me.

Food Journal:

Breakfast: Smoothie - 3-ounces low fat yogurt, 4 strawberries, 1 slice mango, 1/4 peach, 1/2 scoop protein powder, crystal light orange juice (200 cals)

Snack #1: 12 baby carrots and 1 pkg Carl Budig turkey (115 cals)

Dealing with the Anger

2010-10-21T09:05:00.008-05:00

So, I'm approaching the week and a half mark on my new resolve to be healthy (okay, okay, it's a diet). Things are going really well. I've got a nice routine going with my meals. I eat about every two hours. I make sure there is a least some protein in every snack/meal and I haven't been starving or craving bad foods much.

The hub has even bought fries and a burger a couple times and I didn't even take a bite. (Not that I couldn't, mind you, I just don't really want to).

I'm still trying to simmer down from how, really, angry I am at myself for all the weight gain. In April(ish) of 2009 I was at my goal weight. Now, October 2010 and I'm back to exactly where I started when I lost all that weight. We're not talking a 10 pound swing, friends. We are talking 40. Up and down and up and (hopefully) down. This weight loss is important to me on so many more levels then just being thin. But, sometimes it's hard not to look at the tag on my jeans or the fullness in my face and not really feel angry at the girl looking back. Angry for being so weak, so anxious, so lacking in self control.

But I don't want to be angry at myself. So that's the main reason I am taking action. I love my life: my family, my friends, my job, my dogs, my [well, it's almost mine] house, my body (even if it weighs more then I like, it is strong and attractive); I love all of it. And I'd rather spend my time counting a few calories along with my blessings rather then eating whatever I want and then secretly despising myself for some missteps when it comes to food and weight.

It's a learning process, but with each successful day I get a little closer to accepting myself.

Food Journal:

Breakfast: Parfait - 6-ounces low fat yogurt, 2 strawberries, sprinkle "Just Bunches" cereal (110 cals)

Snack #1: 1 pkg Carl Budig Turkey (10 grams protein!!) and 12 baby carrots (115 cals)

Lunch: Black Bean "Soup": 3/4 cooked black beans, sprinkle mozzarella cheese, 1 slice avocado (165 cals)

Snack #2: 1/4 cup edamame and 1 6-ounce low fat yogurt (130 cals)

Dinner: Applebee's Shrimp and Island Rice (375 cals)

Snack #3: 100 cal microwave popcorn bag and 1/2 protein bar (185 cals)

Total Calories: 1080 - dang it.

Food Only

2010-10-20T09:19:00.004-05:00

Food Journal:

Breakfast: Smoothie - 3 strawberries, 1/4 peach, 1 slice mango, 1/2 scoop protein powder, 3-ounces low fat yogurt, crystal light juice (225 cals)

Snack #1: 12 Baby Carrots and a cheese stick (110 cals)

Lunch: Subway Egg and Cheese English Muffin Melt (170 cals)

Snack #2: 1 6-ounce low fat yogurt and 1/4 cup edamame (130 cals)

Dinner: Shredded pork and 1 red potato (380 cals)

Snack#3: McDonald's ice cream cone - no cone and 100 cal microwave popcorn bag (250 cals)

Total Calories: 1265

Hungry just talking about it.

2010-10-19T12:08:00.006-05:00

It's so hard to blog every day. I just don't have very much that interesting to say on a daily basis!

I went grocery shopping last night and got my much-needed supply of food for the week. Some of the food highlights for the week include:

Lunch - Black Bean Soup, California Wraps, and Lettuce Wrappers with Chicken

Dinner - Caribbean Baked Chicken with Mango, Garlic and Soy Grilled Pork Chops, Sun-dried Tomato and Feta Stuffed Chicken Breasts, Pulled Pork Sandwiches (just BBQ pulled pork for me - no bun).

I also stocked up on some delicious veggies for side dishes: fresh asparagus and squash, green beans (I wanted fresh ones, but Wal-Mart let me down, so I got frozen).

All in all it sounds like it should shape up to be one delicious week!

Food Journal:

Breakfast: Parfait - 1 6-ounce low fat yogurt, 5 strawberries, a sprinkle "Just Bunches" cereal (120 cals)

Lunch: California Wrap - 1 whole wheat tortilla, 1 pkg Carl Budig Pastrami, 1/3 avocado, mustard (280 cals)

Snack #1: 1 6-ounce low fat yogurt and a cheese stick (160 cals)

Dinner: Pork Chop and yellow squash (380 cals)

Snack #2: Air popped popcorn and 1/2 protein bar (230 cals)

Total Calories: 1170

The Big Three

2010-10-18T09:18:00.007-05:00

Welcome to Weigh-in, Day One.

The result? 3 pounds lost! Not too shabby. Honestly, I was hoping for a little more given that it is the first week of the diet and all that jazz. However, having said that, I'm thrilled with a three pound loss and won't complain for one second!

I've still got a long way 'til my goal, though, so I'm going to keep on going strong.

Today is the day I need to write my menu and my shopping list. I'll share the highlights with you tomorrow.

Suggestion: For a satisfying sweet treat, try freezing your favorite yogurt flavor. You will feel like you are eating frozen yogurt at home, while keep the calories low. (Try to only freeze it for 3-4 hours. I froze mine overnight and it took about 10 minutes to thaw enough to spoon through).

Food Journal:

Breakfast: Smoothie - 6 strawberries, 3-ounces low fat yogurt, 1/2 scoop protein powder, crystal light orange juice, splenda (250 cals)

Snack #1: 12 Baby Carrots and a cheese stick (115 cals)

Lunch: Grilled Tomato, Garlic and Feta Cheese Pizza (210 cals)

Snack #2: 1/4 cup edamame and 1 6-ounce "frozen yogurt" (150 cals)

Dinner: Subway egg and cheese on english muffin (230 cals)

Snack #3: Microwave Popcorn and 1/2 protein bar (230 cals)

Total Calories: 1185

Food only

2010-10-17T21:51:00.002-05:00

Food Journal:

Breakfast: Parfait - 1 6 ounce non fat yogurt and "Just Bunches" cereal (110 cals)

Lunch: 1 serving brown rice risotto and a cheese stick (220 cals)

Snack #1: "Frozen" yogurt (80 cals)

Dinner: Chicken and Rice (400 cals)

Snack #2: Air Popped Popcorn and 1/2 protein bar (300 cals)

Total Calories: 1110

Weekends...

2010-10-16T11:20:00.004-05:00

I have reached the first weekend of my new resolve to be healthy. Weekends are always really rough for me. I get out of my routine. I sleep in too late and throw off my whole eating "schedule." I made sure to get up early enough today that I wouldn't been thrown off too much.

I'm about to go grab a snack and head off to the salon to get my hair done. :) Nothing like a little change in the hair to freshen up my feelings about myself. Hope you are all having a lovely weekend as well, dear readers.

Food Journal:

Breakfast: Smoothie: 2 slices frozen peaches, 6 frozen strawberries, 3 ounces lowfat yogurt, 1/2 scoop protein powder, crystal light orange juice (220 cals)

Snack #1: Baby Carrots (12) and string cheese (115 cals)

Lunch: Brown Rice Risotto and string cheese (220)

Dinner: Subway 6-inch Egg White and (cheddar) Cheese Flatbread Sandwich with tomatoes, olives and spinach (400 cals)

Snack: Air Popped Popcorn (150 cals)

Total Calories: 1105

My Bad...

2010-10-15T09:18:00.007-05:00

I don't know that anyone actually goes back the next day to see my food journaling for the previous day but, if you do, I want you to know up front that I do not condone my calorie count yesterday. I didn't know until this morning when I put in my last couple items that my count was less than 1200. Ideally, my calories will come in between 1200-1400 for a day. Less than 1200 is never the goal (and I don't think it really helps the body lose weight to feed it quite so little). So, I will make some adjustments to my intake today to make sure I don't come in quite so low!

Today is going to be my first real test in self control. My office is having a BBQ lunch. Here is how it is described on my calendar. "Lunch will be provided, including hamburgers and cheeseburgers on the grill, soda and other items." Hmmm. Other items. I going to bet that doesn't include Grilled Tomato, Garlic and Feta Cheese Pizza? Because that's what I was going to make for myself today before this little luncheon was scheduled.

Never fear, though, I packed some Brown Rice Risotto to put next to a naked hamburger patty. And it's going to be just delicious. :)

Food Journal:

Breakfast: 1 6 oz Light Key Lime Pie Yogurt and 1/2 apple (110 cals)

Lunch: 1 small hamburger patty, 1 slice tomato, 1 serving brown rice risotto (210 cals)

Snack #1: 1/4 cup uncooked edamame and 1 cheese stick (130 cals)

Dinner: 1 Serving South Beach Diet Shepherd's Pie (360 cals)

Snack #2: Air popped popcorn (175 cals)

Total Calories: 985

Busy Stovetop

2010-10-14T09:12:00.007-05:00

On my menu this week, my lunches ended up being a little more cooking heavy then I'm accustomed to, but for the last little while, lunch has been the weak link in my day. I either eat too little and end up starving for candy from the office candy jar by mid-afternoon, or I don't have anything planned so I run to the nearest fast food place and put my body into sodium shock. So, I turned to my trusty South Beach Diet Cookbooks and hunted from some delicious, easy lunch ideas.

I ended up with the following list for lunches: Almond Crusted Chicken (leftovers); Grilled Tomato, Garlic, and Feta Cheese Pizza, Vegetarian Chili with Avocado Salsa, Barley Risotto, and Edamame Salad.

Well, last night I was preparing dinner (South Beach Diet Shepherd's Pie) and simultaneously cooking the Risotto and Veggie Chili. Every burner and the oven were on. Phew. It was quite the multi-tasking. But, I'm happy to let you know that we will be having a delicious lunch break today!

3 days down...

Food Journal:

Breakfast: Parfait: Yogurt, 1/3 apple, Just Bunches cereal (120 cals)

Snack #1: Baby carrots (12) and cheese stick (115 cals)

Lunch: Brown Rice Risotto with Spinach and Parmesan (180 cals)

Snack #2: 1/8 cup Dry Roasted Wasabi Edamame and 1 6-ounce yogurt (150 cals)

Dinner: 1 Serving South Beach Diet Spinach Dumplings (290 cals)

Snack #3: Air popped popcorn (150 cals)

Total calories: 1045

Learning with Tyra

2010-10-13T09:43:00.003-05:00

I'm going to admit it. "America's Next Top Model" is my favorite of all my guilty pleasures. So, last week Geoff and I were watching and I had a bit of an epiphany. No, seriously.

So the girls are hanging out in their ridiculously awesome beach house when they get a surprise visit from supermodel Karolina Kurkova. Karolina went on to mix up a fruit and veggie smoothie for the girls and talk to them about how important it is to eat healthy. Not just to stay thin, but to look beautiful, to keep their skin clear and glowing, to keep them feeling strong and healthy.

So, I may never look like Karolina Kurkova, but I can feed my body the vitamins and nutrients it needs to really function at its best. I can feel strong and healthy and beautiful - and if I'm truly feeding myself a healthy lifestyle, the weight loss can't help but come along for the ride. Right? Right.

Food Journal:

Breakfast: Fruit Smoothie (see Monday for ingredients - 210 cals).

Snack #1: 12 Carrots (40 cals)

Lunch: Lean Cuisine Pot Sticker Meal (370 cals)

Snack #2: Cheese stick and Yogurt (160 cals)

Dinner: South Beach Diet Shepherd's Pie (420 cals)

Total Calories: 1200

Day Two

2010-10-12T09:14:00.000-05:00

Well, I had to start somewhere, right? And thus I'm off and onward to day #2 of...what? I don't want to call it a diet, really. Just life, I guess. Just choosing the healthy versus the fried. Choosing the low-cal/low-fat versus the candy. Choosing myself over stress and anxiety.

Yesterday was a success. You can look to yesterday's blog to see my food journaling for the day.

I also wrote up my menu for the week and did my grocery shopping so I don't have to make any last minute runs to...McDonald's...for a meal. Some highlights for this week's menu: Spinach Dumplings, Feta and Arugula Pizzas, Beef Crockpot Stew. Mmm. My stew is in the crockpot as I type.

My goal for today is to stick to the "rules" and carry on. I'll do my weigh-ins on Monday mornings. So you'll just want to wait 'til then to see how things are going on the scale. I know...you can barely stand it. ;)

Food Journal:

Breakfast: Parfait - 6 oz low-fat yogurt, 1/2 nectarine, sprinkle "Just Bunches" cereal (160 cals)

Snack #1: Baby Carrots (12) and String Cheese (115 cals)

Lunch: South Beach "Pizza": 1 whole wheat tortilla, 1 oz feta cheese, 1 plum tomato, 1/2 clove garlic; and 1/8 cup mixed nuts and candy corn (315 cals)

Snack #2: 1/8 cup Dry Roasted Wasabi Edamame and yogurt (150 cals)

Dinner: Stew with Meat, Potatoes, and Carrots (350 cals)

Snack #3: Air popped popcorn (150 cals)

Total Calories: 1240

Not so mini anymore

2010-10-11T09:24:00.000-05:00

Okay, Okay. So I know I've been MIA for awhile now. And I know that any readers I do have out there (hi, mom) probably don't have a lot of faith in me at this point.

But, I'm not gonna let that stop me. :)

I've got 30-40 pounds to lose in 6 months. And you better believe I'm gonna do it.

Rules of the week:

1) 3 meals and 3 snacks each day.

2) NO chocolate.

3) Daily exercises (be it just dog walking)

4) Food journal.

Wish me luck!

Breakfast: Strawberry/Peach smoothie: 3 peach slices, 5 strawberries, 3 ounces nonfat vanilla yogurt, 10 ounces orange Crystal Light, 1/2 scoop soy protein powder, 2 tbsp Splenda (210 cals).

Snack 1: Baby Carrots (12) and string cheese. (125 cals).

Lunch: Almond Crusted Chicken Breast, 1/2 Apple, 1/4 cup mixed nuts w/candy corn (317 cals)

Snack 2: 1/4 cup Dry Roasted Wasabi Edamame and 1 Low-fat Peach Yogurt (210 cals)

Dinner: 1 Serving South Beach Diet Spinach Dumplings (290 cals)

Snack 3: 5 cups airpopped popcorn (150 cals)

Total Calories: 1302

1 follower...

2010-04-26T17:21:00.000-05:00

How sad is it that after all this time, my weight loss blog has only ONE follower (and, yes, it's my mother).

Anyway, things are going better. Saturday I put on my roller blades for the first time in [literally] years. I took the pup out for some exercise and we had a blast. I plan to go on a couple short blading adventures with him every day. It's fun for me, fun for him, and exercise for us both. That's a win-win.

I've been having a little trouble with sweets - but have been really good today about keeping myself full and happy with healthy, delicious snacks and I'm not craving anything too tempting.

I got two new South Beach cookbooks and have some yummy meals planned for the upcoming week. I'm hopeful to loose another couple pounds. I've got some serious ground to gain on my 15.

Exercise Report: Sunday Geoff and I went out on our bikes and found a delightful bike path. We rode for about 90 minutes and some parts were directly into the wind and pushed us pretty hard. It was wonderful. This morning I went on a 15 minute blading adventure with Rom and then did 15 on the treadmill and 15 on the stair stepper at the gym. I'll do at least another 15 minutes with the Rom-bo dog tonight and hopefully a little more biking.

Hor-moans

2010-04-23T11:20:00.000-05:00

It's Friday and I'm happy about this. It's been a long week. Filled with lots of work, cleaning, cooking, vomiting (fantastic, right?), cramping, and general grump-faceness.

I had a few food slip-ups this week. It's my "time of the month" and the week before is generally a week of me craving carbs and sugar and feeling bloated and fat so I-might-as-well-eat-that-insertunhealthyfooditemhere-anyway. However, in general I've been doing well and mostly trying not to feel guilty for any snafus that may have occurred.

More importantly, the 'week before' is over now - and that means my appetite has gone with it. So, a couple days of no appetite should make up for a couple days of extra appetite.

My weight is a bit up due to the aforementioned bloating and inc. sugar/salt intake, but by Monday I should be back down to where I was and ready to lose that last 9.

I believe in me!

Workout Report: I got sick Tuesday afternoon. This prevented me from working out in the evening, cuz I figured my body should recuperate. Then Wednesday rolled around and I opted to spend the evening cleaning my [very neglected] apartment (which, by the way, looks fantastic now) rather then heading over to the gym. So, when Thursday morning rolled around and I rolled out of be 45 minutes before work - I vowed to Geoff that I NEEDED to work out that evening. He promised to make sure I did.

So, after dinner (pizza meat pie, kinda like a cheese-smothered meatloaf; 'twas quite delish), we hopped on our bikes and rode to the gym. I spent 60 minutes on the treadmill watching Project Runway. Then we rode to the grocery store for some - much needed - ice. So, 45 minutes of bike riding and 60 minutes of treadmilling didn't quite make up for my two missed days - but it was sufficient recompense, I think.

I did make it to the gym this morning as well for a 60 minute round-robin (20 elliptical; 20 stationary bike; 20 stair-stepper).

Roasting the Chick. Peas.

2010-04-20T10:55:00.000-05:00

Well, inquiring minds want to know about Roasted Garbanzo Beans. There's not much to tell beyond the fact that they are just that - garbanzo beans roasted in the oven.

It's interesting, though, what happens to a garbanzo bean when roasted. I mean, let's be honest, garbanzo beans are mediocre at best. They are kinda slimy and lumpy. But their flavor isn't all bad. Which is why they are the perfect candidate for roasting. When roasted, they get kinda crunchy and nutty (not to mention a great source of protein). Like a healthy corn nut.

To roast them (and, yes, this recipe orginated from the SBD cookbook), I start by opening 4 cans of beans and rinsing them in a strainer so there's none of that foamy, weird liquid from the can on them anymore.

Next I lay them out on a jelly roll pan and drizzle them with 1/4-1/3 cup olive oil. I sprinkle them with a generous amount of sea salt and fresh ground pepper. Depending on my mood I'll flavor them with cayenne, garlic powder, or seasoning salt. Then I give the pan a good shake to make sure each bean has a nice coating of olive oil.

I then put in the oven at 500 degrees for about 35-40 minutes, shaking the pan every 10 minutes or so the keep the beans from sticking/burning.

When they start to get a little toasted looking, I know they are done.

Let them cool completely before portioning into baggies. But don't let them sit out too long after cooling, otherwise they morph into little rocks.

Enjoy!

Exercise Report: Monday was a less vigorous day then usual, but I still got my time in. I did a 40 minute walk with the dogs in the morning and a 20 minute walk with the hub at lunch. I haven't worked out yet today, but will make sure I do tonight!

Tips, Tid-bits, and Tricks

2010-04-16T14:54:00.001-05:00

My dear friend-and-former-roomie, Mari, commented on my last blog and requested any "tips" I might have on preventing pre-meal snacking.

I have two answers.

Number One: Planning, Planning, Planning.

I plan my menu for the week on Sunday evening and shop on Monday evening. I buy exactly what I need to make all my pre-planned meals and snacks. But, really, that's all I buy. So, there aren't any really great "oops, I accidently put that chip/cookie/snack in my mouth and spoiled my dinner" opportunities.

I also cook the entire (work)week's worth of lunches Monday night and pack them in tupperware so that there isn't that dreadful risk of sleeping past the alarm, or getting stuck on a call at work, and therefore missing lunch.

I also plan snacks. I have my snack basket full of apples, yogurt, string cheese, roasted garbanzos, chopped veggies, etc...and we both take whatever we are in the mood for to work to eat throughout the day - so we never end up starving. I try to make sure I have a source of protein at every snack and meal - protein takes longer to metabolize and therefore keeps you feeling fuller, longer.

The South Beach Diet Cookbook has become my best friend because it allows me to plan delicious meals that are relatively easy and quick to prepare. It typically takes me about 40 minutes to get dinner on the table, so that's enough time for Geoff to take out the dogs, change out of his work clothes, and veg for a minute before he gets too hungry.

Number Two: Exercise Early

Something about starting the day moving (even it's it's just a ten minute walk around the block, or dancing around the kitchen while cooking breakfast) seems to trigger the body to know that today - I am taking care of myself.

Good luck to all my fellow losers out there, big and small. And those those who are no longer losing, but hope not to gain (again)!

Exercise Report: I got up and went to the gym today. I spent 60 minutes doing cardio (20 cross trainer, 20 stair stepper, and 20 treadmill). Yipee.

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2010-04-15T11:08:00.000-05:00

Today is a good day.

1) Pay Day. Always good.

2) Morning bike ride with the hub (50 minutes). Felt good.

3) Shower in my own bathroom instead of the gym. Not having to see other naked women = good.

4) Cooking bacon egg cups for breakfast. Tasted good.

5) Stepped on the scale to another pound and 1/2 gone. 'Twas GOOD.

6 down, 9 to go. 20 more days on the challenge. I dare say I might even be able to do it.

Exercise Report: Via number 2 up above, you can see that I did indeed get my morning workout on. I'm hoping to get the hub out to play some racqetball tonight, but if the weather stays as it is, bikes might win again.

Super. Snooty.

2010-04-14T16:18:00.000-05:00

At lunch today, Geoff and I were eating my skillfully prepared lunch. One of his pharmacists walked by and asked what we were having, to which Geoff replied:

"It's, uh, a chili-thing, with some avocado thing. I don't really know. But it's really good."

In my head I'm screaming it's homemade Vegetarian Chili, made with grilled bell pepper and fresh garlic, with Avocado Spread and Sour Cream. But, whatever you call it, it's was really good.

Exercise Report: Geoff and I went to the driving range last night. I sucked. Due to this, I only really hit for about 20 minutes to bring the total for the day to 70 minutes. I went to the gym this morning and got 55 minutes in (30 elliptical, 10 stationary bike, 10 treadmill, 5 rowing). It was super.

Am I HOT or is that just my Oven?

2010-04-13T17:41:00.000-05:00

There are no good titles on a diet blog. I'm gonna work on getting more creative with my titles. I spend the majority of my posting time just trying to come up with a decent title. Lame? Yes.

Things are going smoothly. Went to Wal-meezy last night and purchased a truckload (or a Mercedes load) of groceries. I came home and cooked and cooked and cooked. I made Barley Risotto with Spinach and Parmesean. I made Vegetarian Chili with Avocado Spread. I made a delectable fritatta. I roasted and bagged 10 servings of garbanzo beans. Sliced and bagged apples, and carrots, and all other delicious items. I tupperwared 4 days worth of lunches, 7 days worth of snacks, and 2 days worth of breakfasts.

I've already kicked this week's butt and it's only Tuesday!

As a side note, I went to the doctor's today - and even the doc's scale brought me in at 4 pounds down.

Exercise Report: On account of the aforementioned 1 hour of shopping and 2 and 1/2 hours of cooking, I was unable to get in any formal exercise yesterday. But, shopping and cooking is at least not a sloth-like activity. And, it must be done. I did spend 50 minutes at the gym this morning - 25 on the stair stepper and 25 on the treadmill.

Note: Last week I came in at 510 minutes of exercise (or an average of 72 minutes a day)!

Week Two

2010-04-12T16:29:00.000-05:00

And so begins week two of the 30 day challenge. Clearly things are going smoothly thus far. My weight was up a tad this morning, but that's the normal fluctuations.

I planned my grocery list for the week. Monday is shopping night. I'm excited about some of the meals I'll be making this week (courtesy of the South Beach Diet cookbook). Some highlights are Barley Risotto, Provolone Chicken Melt and Veggie Chili (lunches - made the chili last week and it was to die for); Carribean Baked Chicken with Mango and Pizza Meat Pie (dinners). The snack basket will be refilled with bell peppers, edamame, radishes, cheese sticks, yogurt, dried fruit, and roasted garbanzo beans. I will be buying new, full and delicious kettle corn popcorn seasoning and spray butter. Sounds like a good week to be eating at the Parker household.

Last week is was so fun to find creative ways to get active with Geoff. Our weekend was packed full of biking, racquetball, dog-walking and all kinds of fun ways to get up and get out.

Exercise Report: Sunday Geoff and I took a nice 45 minute bike ride. My body was killing me after racqetball and racing on the stationary bikes the day before, so he went out for some more biking in the evening, but I decided to give my body a rest. Today we plan to bike in the evening, but it looks like it might rain, so we'll go play racquetball at the Y if the weather prevents us from biking.

P.S. To answer C's comment from my previous post: My body REALLY loves exercise. My body also REALLY loves water retention. A full week of regular cardiovasular exercise coupled with a full week cooking all my own meals (therefore taking in about a billion times less salt and sugar) means my body will drop a lot of weight - fast. Things should slow down a little bit after the first two weeks, but I love to watch the numbers fly those first couple!

Success

2010-04-10T22:36:00.000-05:00

Well, one week down. And 4 and 1/2 pounds down! Yay!

Exercise Report: I actually ended up taking Friday off from working out, but I'm okay with it because my poor bod just got thrown back into the whole workout thing. I think it's okay to give it a break. Today, however, I did get about 70 minutes of workout in. Geoff and I went to the Y and played racquetball (my first time) for about 55 minutes and then we went down and "raced" on the Expresso bikes for a few miles (about 15 minutes). It was a blast. My legs are super tired. We are planning to go rollerblading tomorrow at the park downtown - we'll see what we actually end up doing!

Head Games

2010-04-09T10:54:00.000-05:00

So much about health and confidence and body image and weight is all just in the head.

I've been making smart food choices and exercising regularly now for, what, 5 days? And, yet, I feel slimmer, sexier, more confident and I've got a little added swaggar in my step. And, while my weight is down a pound or two - I know, realistically, that doesn't translate to actually looking slimmer.

It's bizarre - but at least it does provide that much-needed will power to keep going and keep trying and keep on keeping on.

Exercise Report: Thursday - I rode my bike to the gym and back and worked out there for 45 minutes for a total of 75 minutes of exercise (30 biking, 35 elliptical, 10 rowing machine). Today I slept in so I haven't worked out yet, but I will! :)

Wasted!

2010-04-07T12:53:00.000-05:00

I was reviewing some of my old photos the other day and I realized something. I have wasted so much time in my life worrying about my weight. In every photo I looked at...I remember the time when it was taken...and I remember thinking "boy, I feel fat" or "boy, I look fat in that photo" or "man, I wish I looked more like I did in that photo."

It reminded me of a quote on a magnet I came across at some kitschy shop in the Mall of America.

What a waste! It's going to take some effort - but I'm going to learn how to be happy. Regular exercise, healthy eating, occasional indulgences are going to turn me into a lean, happy gal. While counting days and minutes exercised and tracking my weight loss is vital to the success of reaching a healthy weight - I am done worry about numbers.

Looking at each picture I could tell you how much I weighed in that photo. Ridiculous! Because, you know what? It doesn't matter. I have some amazing memories at all weights. It's about being healthy and comfortable (and, yes, there is a number associated with that - but it's not the number I thought it would be). Finally.

I'm feeling good about things today. Strong. Confident. Maybe it helps that the number on the scale was down. :-)

Exercise Report: Geoff and I went golfing last night, so that brought my total exercise for the day to 80 minutes. I got up to take a long bike ride this morning, but about 1/8 mile from the apartment - my front tire popped! I jogged back to the apartment with my bike and walked the dogs while hub fixed up the tire. So, the hour long bike ride turned into a 25 minute bike ride with a 15 minute dog walk and a 5 minute jog. Oh, well, that's still 45 minutes! I'll find the other 15 before the day is over.

Allegiance Olympics

2010-04-06T17:38:00.001-05:00

Well, today was a rockin' good time at work. We have been having a heath and fitness goal this year. The first quarter is over, so we had our "retreat" today. We had six 'events' consisting of scrabble, boggle, Norweigian golf, bean bag toss, pictionary, and mini golf. We were split into four teams and competed.

It was loads of fun. My team ended up "winning" silver. There were awards for those who reached their exercise goals. I was a failure at this last quarter - but so far this quarter I'm on a roll.

Exercise Report: I made it to the gym this morning and did 50 minutes of cardio (25 minutes on the cross trainer - killer. and 25 on the treadmill). I plan to walk the dogs for 10-20 minutes tonight to reach my goal of 60 for the day. :)

The Snack Basket Revisited

2010-04-05T23:13:00.000-05:00

Well, super-wife and lazy-wife came to an agreement today.

Snack basket = great idea.

Snack basket full of cookies, chips, rice krispies and other sugar/salt-filled goodies = evil idea.

Thus the "new" snack basket, or "reincarnated" snack basket arose.

In the fridge: a purple bowl filled with baggies of cucumbers, radishes, edimame, cheese sticks and low-sugar yogurt.

On the counter: an orange bowl with baggies of roast garbanzo beans, pita bread, and dried mangoes.

I'm already looking forward to snack time!

Workout report: 45 minutes at the gym this morning (15 elliptical, 30 stationary bike). 2 short (15 minute) walks with the dogs. For a total of 75 minutes.

It's fun to stay at the...

2010-04-04T01:07:00.000-05:00

Well, today I finally felt well enough to get out and about a bit. Geoff and I took our first Fargo bike ride together. The wind made things a little tougher then expected, but overall, it was sunny and warm and great to be on my bike again.

We rode to the YMCA and signed up for our memberships. So, my first weight loss challenge will officially begin Monday morning. After my nasty allergic reaction last week, I'll need to start things a little slower then I would normally like to, but getting back into the swing of a regular workout is going to be glorious.

I'm also excited to get back into the swing of cooking. Before I got sick, I made a delicious days worth of meals - and I'm soooo ready to have that every day. Tonight I made steak with tomato topping (a new favorite of ours from the South Beach Diet cookbook) and boiled asparagus. I LOVE the southbeach cookbook. Mostly because everything is delicious. It's a great feeling to know that whatever I decide to cook will be great.

Anyway, tomorrow I have planned a London Broil (in the fridge marinating as I type) with Roasted Asparagus Soup (I love this time of year when asparagus is practically free!) and Broiled French bread with Garlic and Melted Medium Cheddar Cheese. I'm hopefuly that the weather will be gorgeous and we can pack it up for a picnic.

YMCA - here I come.

Ready - Set - oh, wait...

2010-04-02T17:19:00.000-05:00

Well, I was all ready and set to start my 15 pounds in 30 days challenge, when my body decided that I needed to take a week of bedrest and have a severe allergic reaction. I'm hoping to get my gym membership all squared away this weekend and get started on Monday - Oh, yeah.

The Challenge

2010-03-29T11:43:00.001-05:00

The Challenge: 15 pounds lost in 30 days

Starting Date: Whatever day I get my YMCA membership - hopefully 03/31/10.

Completion Date: 04/29/10

Methods for Weight Loss:

Cooking breakfast, lunch, and dinner every day and packing healthy snacks to eat at 11am and 4pm.
Exercising at least 60 minutes, 7 days a week (this includes, but is not limited to, the gym, dog walking, geo-caching, golfing, and cleaning).
Limiting my TV watching to 2 shows a night.
Drinking as much water as I do Soda each day.

Wish me luck - I'll keep you updated!

Ready, Set, Go!

One of these days...

2010-03-28T22:33:00.000-05:00

The salad for lunch is prepped and packed. The veggies for the breakfast fritatta are chopped. The chicken for tomorrow's Chicken with Lime Sauce for dinner is defosting in the fridge. The snack veggies are cut and sectioned into individual serving sizes. The roasted garbanzo beans are cooling on the stove.

This chick is ready for change.

I came to a decision this weekend that I was done letting my neighbors below me bully me out of exercising. Hold that thought, I'm not going to start being a crappy neighbor and work out on my treadmill anyway. The treadmill is going back (and yes, in the Merc). :(

I will be trading it out for a membership at the Y. Right down the street from Geoff's work is a great YMCA with a great cardio studio and weight room, group exercise classes, rock climbing wall, indoor skate park, video game room, and basketball. Plus, two tennis courts right outside.

The downtown Y has 2 pools, raquetball and a couple additional features.

So, as soon as the treadmill gets returned, we'll take the cash and head over to the Y and start going in the mornings before work.

I need it. Exercise makes me feel better in so many ways. So, I'm done neglecting it. Mostly by removing the excuses. If it's too easy to put it off, then something's got to change.

And change it will.

The Mini-Loser goes to Minne-apolis

2010-03-08T08:31:00.000-06:00

Well, our mini vacation this weekend was a welcome respite from life. We had a great little hotel room, complete with separate living and bed rooms and kitchen. Breakfast in the hotel had everything you could ask for (including healthy options!).

The Mall of America didn't disappoint, with 3 stories of shops, both high end and affordable, a theme park in the middle, and free refills on Diet Mountain Dew. Ikea was just across the parking lot from the mall as well (and Geoff was thrilled to find out we were there on the weekend of the $1 Swedish Meatballs meal).

Overall it was a nice, relaxing weekend. I didn't get any "conventional" exercise in, but since one level of the Mall of America is over a half mile, I walked at least 2 miles in the mall alone and then Ikea added another good distance. I also made smart food decisions. There was no weight loss this morning, but no gain either.

Progress is progress, right?

Mini-Apple-Less

2010-03-05T11:05:00.000-06:00

Another pound down. Cool.

Last night was Pistachio Crusted Chicken - and it turned out great. It was really easy. Whirr up the pistachios in a food processor. Mix with cumin and sesame seeds. Dip chicken in flour, egg and then the pistachio coating. Bake for 25-30 minutes.

I also made a side-dish of "glazed" carrots. I just boiled these in orange juice for 10 minutes, then added honey and let the liquid boil off. They were a great compliment to each other and I'll definitely be making this again.

I also worked out last night. 30 minutes on the treadmill (at very high incline) and then 20 minutes of weight training (using the resistance tubes).

Geoff and I are off on a little "roadtrip" this weekend to Minneapolis. Should be loads of fun. I figure I can bring the resistance tubes and weight train while we're at the hotel.

Pizz-uh oh

2010-03-04T09:47:00.000-06:00

So, last night got a little crazy time-wise. Hub had to work late. But hub also had to be to the church by 6:45 for scouts. I left work at 5:30, went home and let the dogs relieve themselves. Then I had to hop back in the car and pick hub up at 5:45, but he didn't actually get out of work until 6:15. So on the way home we stopped and picked up...a Little Ceasar's Hot-n-Ready pizza.

I know.

Ma and I discussed at some length the fancy stories I could tell about what I made for dinner last night to blog about. haha. But I guess the whole point of this blog is to keep my honest.

However, as if the fates are trying to keep my motivated, by weight was down 1.5 pounds today. So, instead of feeling guilty about my two slices of pizza last night, I'm feeling good about that fact that a) I didn't eat 4 and b) I don't have to sabotage today. Sometimes guilt makes me feel like eating (okay, pretty much always), so not having to deal with the guilt is a huge blessing.

Tonight on the menu is Pistachio Crusted Chicken. Yum!

I'm getting my ND license today. Hope my picture looks better than my Utah one - it's BAD. So bad.

(Anti)Thanksgiving

2010-03-03T09:47:00.000-06:00

Last night I made my foray into Mushroom Stuffed Turkey. They were gorgeous and smelled kind of like heaven - but neither the hub or I were too impressed with the flavor. Maybe I'll try a different kind of mushroom next time...or do chicken instead or turkey....or just never do it again.

But, it was still edible and healthy. We had a little side salad with spinach, greens, and a pinch of pistachios. That part was yummy.

Still no exercise. Long story. Neighbor issues. I'll talk about it later. Probably. LAME.

Sweet Holy...Potatoes

2010-03-02T09:12:00.000-06:00

Well, day one went pretty well and day two is off to a good start. I went grocery shopping last night and got everything I need for a week filled with delicious dinners and healthy snacks.

Last night I cooked up a pot of Sweet Potato Garlic Soup. It was super (souper?) easy, and turned out really great, I think. Just sweet potatoes, onion, roasted garlic, green beans and chicken broth. It made for a nice creamy, slightly sweet soup. I topped it off with a swirl of unsweetened Greek yogurt and some chives. Yum!

I didn't exercise yesterday, which is the real killer, but by the time I finished my grocery shopping, cooked up the soup and ate...it was almost 9pm. And, being on the third story, I didn't want to disturb the downstairs neighbors. I should be able to get finished a lot earlier tonight and therefore get my workout on.

I did buy a few $3 shirts while I was at Walmart grocery shopping - and they are pretty cute. Surprisingly enough.

One day down...

Denial

2010-03-01T08:15:00.000-06:00

Well, after months of misplaced denial, I'm back at square one on the weight loss wagon. I stepped on the scale this morning to an ugly scene.

I took a brief moment to mourn the loss of my short-lived svelt figure and then allowed the full reality of the 30 pound gain to sink in.

But, it's okay. You know why? I have meal-planned and exercise-planned and before the summer can make it to my door, I'm gonna kick that 30 pound's butt.

This week I have planned a plethora of healthy, easy dinners including pistachio crusted chicken, stuffed butternut squash and Thai chicken. During the day I'm doing Slim Fast powdered drinks for 2 weeks.

I'd really like to sit around and be embarrassed about all the weight I've gained (but let's be honest, the sitting around is what got me here in the first place) and hate my clothes - but that would not make them fit again. So, here I am, putting myself out there. Accountable to you, reader(s). Keep me honest, will ya?

So it begins...

2009-11-16T10:00:00.000-06:00

Please Note: The weight loss ticker above denotes WEIGHT LOSS!

My mom noted to me the other day that in my most recent blog posting I sounded a little fed up. And, truthfully, I am. I'm so tired of playing a victim to food. Like, oh, poor little me, I can't lose weight. It's too hard to get up and go to the gym...it's too easy to eat crap...it's not my fault that my body reacts to stress with a desire to binge...and excuse after excuse.

And all that did was convince me that I didn't have the power to change that. It is NOT hard to get up and go to the gym if it is what I choose to do. It's NOT hard to turn down the cupcake if I'm well nourished and prepared for my future meals. It's all a matter of deciding what I want and, well, doing it.

I'm not a victim. I have so much power. And that decision alone has already lost me 2 pounds. Carry on.

Don't Give Up

2009-11-13T12:57:00.000-06:00

Don't give up on me yet.

Top Ten Reasons I'm Going to Succeed:

1) My goal is not just to lose weight, but to learn how to manage the emotional side of my eating problems.

2) Success is measured much less by pounds lost as it is by confidence gained.

3) I have a rockin' support system.

4) I really, truly love the gym...I just have to find the right time to go (I'm thinking mornings).

5) I am not a victim to food, weight, or emotions.

6) Admitting weakness and insecurity does not constitute failure.

7) I am a worthy investment of the time, energy, and money involved in my goals.

8) I'm coming to realize that there is so much in life that is more important then my weight...and if I focus on those things, the weight will control itself.

9) I can do anything.

10) I'm beautiful no matter what the scale (or mirror, or button on my pants, or reflection in the glass pane of the door outside my office building....) says.

So, here we go again. To success!

I'm Will Go Far

2009-10-26T19:59:00.000-05:00

or to Fargo...

Well, day one in Fargo has been good. The training was great, I'm feeling really good.

On the plane ride here, I read a book my best friend gave me for my birthday called, "Feel the Fear...And Do it Anyway."

It was extremely eye-opening for me and really focused on that dreaded control word. Only, it wasn't about reliquishing control, it was about taking it. About realizing that no matter what events happen in life, I control how I respond to it. And I have the choice between acting like a victim or taking control.

It has helped me with food today. A couple of times I was tempted to make bad food choices, but I was able to use some of the techniques in the book to remind myself that I have the power NOT to choose to eat. That I control my actions and I control how I respond to stress in my life.
This evening I went down to the hotel gym and got a nice workout. Tonight I'm going to take a warm bath and go to bed early.

And when I get back into town Friday morning, I hope to make a log in the weight loss ticker!

Super-wife is Back

2009-10-21T16:00:00.000-05:00

Well, I made a pretty big decision yesterday. I discontinued from my Calculus class. I kind of layed out my priorities and realized that it (meaning Calc) wasn't even on the list...yet it was taking 10-15 hours of my week and really impacting my ability to be 'present,' successful, and happy in completing the items that do fall onto my priority list.

So, last night, instead of going to class and taking a test and starting my homework, I was able to go to the grocery store, make a pot of homemade soup, make pizza crusts for Geoff's dinner tonight, pack snack baskets, wash dishes, cook dinner for me and Geoff, and do some obediance training with my dogs. All between the hours of 7-11! It was good for the soul.

Tonight is my modeling debut. I wish I was a few pounds thinner...but I'm not gonna lie...I look cute! I was told yesterday that I need to, and I quote, "Select something that will help distinguish you as an employee and not a student. For you, Amanda, this is extremely important because you are so young in age. Suggestions include dress shirt, blazer, sweater vest, pearls, lipstick; although I don’t think you have to look like you’re headed to Church. Again, avoid white or pastel colors, and anything red. We love solids! We would discourage anything with large/dominant logos, big stripes, etc."

WHAT?! A sweatervest and pearls?!? I thought they chose me for this because I was a young employee. I'm 23...why do you want me to look like I'm 60? So I settled on a pink dress shirt with puff sleeves, a black skirt with a little white design (probably won't be noticeable to the camera), a belt (that's what old people wear, right?), and adorable pink heels. I also curled my hair. Maybe old people curl their hair.

Anywho, we'll see how it goes. Wish me luck. Or, wait, is modeling like performing and I'm supposed to break a leg...

Not too shabby.

2009-10-20T12:38:00.000-05:00

Okay, so I admit it, I stepped on the scale this morning. And...not too bad! I don't have any news to report to that stupid weight loss ticker, but I'm hopeful that I will on Friday.
Today has been another day of control. Over food, I suppose. Ha. It actually feels good to be able to tell myself "yes" to food I have packed and planned. I'm really focusing on food this week instead of getting bogged down in gym failure and then binging.
Next week I have a business trip and will therefore have plenty of spare time by myself, so the hotel gym and I will become good friends.

As a side note: My brown slacks have yet to reappear. I'm very discouraged. I guess this means I need to make my other pants fit.

As an underneath note: My photo shoot is tomorrow...what am I going to wear without my brown slacks!

Control

2009-10-19T14:05:00.000-05:00

To anyone who struggles with food, control seems to be this four-letter-word. Because, honestly, at the root of any eating disorder (and, yes, I do consider my binge eating difficulties disordered eating), there is the issue of control. Whether it be too much, or, in my case, the lack thereof.

The hard thing about food is that no one else can control my intake for me. They could try...but then I'd turn into a 3-headed, fire-breathing dragon that would burn off their eyebrows for even suggesting I can't eat that cake. Ultimately, somewhere inside of me, I have to remind myself that I actually don't want that cake. In fact, the only thing the cake will ultimately make me feel is lack of control. And it is the stress and out-of-control nature of life that leads to the eating in the first place. Seems a little counterintuitive.

The good news? Today I have had control. I had a drinkable yogurt and fiber one cereal for breakfast. I had a pack of carl buddig, a cheese stick and carrots for lunch. I have an apply waiting in the fridge for an afternoon snack, and a big, warm, cozy bowl of oatmeal waiting to be cooked and devoured when I get home from work.

Tomorrow, hopefully, will take a cue from today and follow suit. I have a busy week, but I'm PREPARED for it. I control my response to the stress. The stress doesn't control me.

I hope...

The Non-Diet Blog

2009-10-14T15:48:00.000-05:00

I've decided that this is the WORST diet blog, ever.

Why? Well, I've yet to lose any weight (in fact, I've gained). Know what that makes this? A non-diet blog. It's a blog to document my weight GAIN, it would seem. And that is something I don't need an audience for. :-)

Sigh. On top of that, I've lost my brown slacks (remember, the only work pants I have that fit?). Fantastic. How do you lose an entire pair of pants? I mean, a sock, I get that. But, pants? Sad day.

I need to jumpstart my life. I'm getting complacent in everything.

School - bare minimum.

Dogs - one walk a day, at best.

Gym - sleep is winning.

Husband - neglected (and I LOVE him soooo much).

Church Responsibilities - bare minimum.

Food - anything and everything.

Anyone got any jumper cables?

M.I.A.

2009-10-13T14:32:00.000-05:00

Oops...it's been a little while since I blogged.

Usually this means I'm completely off course...and this time is somewhat of an exception. I'm not 100% on track like I should be, but mostly I'm just wicked busy!

Which is also the reason I'm somewhat veering from the track of dieting righteousness. Not only is it nearly impossible to cook for myself (or the hubster) when there's no time, but it's so much easier to eat crappy. Moreover, I'm a stress eater, so the time crunches and the lack of time to do REAL crunches makes for a girl apt to eat.

And, food has become such an emotional thing for me now, that it's really hard to eat something without feeling emotional...which just means I shove more in my mouth. If I could just eat ONE serving, I'd be fine. Alas, I'm stuck with the whole "enchilada," so-to-speak.

So, I guess what I'm looking for is some encouragement. Between the stress on one side, the guilt on the other, and my shrinking clothes mocking me from the closet, I'm feeling a little run down. What can I do to jump-start the weight loss so I can feel successful and motivated?

Special K Diet for two weeks? Slim Fast? Some sort of :::coughcoughstupid::: cleanse? I'm pretty much willing to try anything at this point. I just need to feel like it's possible to succeed. I'm stuck in that self-loathing part of the diet cycle.

Who asked the mirror, anyway?

2009-10-06T09:37:00.000-05:00

I was going to do affirmations in this blog. In fact, I had even put the numbers 1-5 in a list form simply awaiting the affirmations to fall into place...but I just don't have it in me today.

Yesterday was a rousing success. I went to the gym in the morning, didn't eat anything that wasn't planned for, finished my homework, got to be early.

I got up this morning in a pretty good mood. Went to the gym (20 minutes Cyrex machine, 15 treadmill, 15 stationary bike), played with my dogs, showered, etc...then came time to get dressed. I bought a couple of amazing pairs of heels this weekend and I wanted to wear one of them today. They are "statement" shoes, if you will. So I needed a fairly neutral outfit.

Unfortunately, the only neutral skirt I have doesn't fit, but I made the mistake of trying to squeeze into it anyway. Lucky enough, I did get it all zipped up...but couldn't find a top to go with it. Anyway, long story short, I'm not wearing my new heels and I'm feeling a little bit deflated.

The good news? I'm not giving up. I'm gonna show that skirt who's boss.

And so it begins

2009-10-05T09:14:00.000-05:00

For anyone who reads this blog, it probably seems lame. A weight loss blog where the blogger has yet to lose an entire pound. And, you are probably right. But I think that's kind of the point. Part of the big reason I'm keeping my blog updated. Because weight loss, dieting, food struggles, exercise, time management, they are HARD.

I've been really good at making excuses for the last 3 weeks of blogging. "I'm really tired." "It's my birthday." "It's a night out." "I really LIKE this food." "I look pretty darn good, why kill myself?" "I wanted to go to the gym, but I just ran out of time." etc...

I'm done with excuses. For real. Don't believe me? Well, just to show my dedication, I will tell you that I got up at 5:45am this morning and went to the gym! I did 20 minutes stair climber, 15 treadmill, and 15 stationary bike. And I will be going every morning for the rest of the week (and beyond). No more excuses not to go to the gym - because "I'm lazy and don't want to get out of bed" is an excuse that is off the table.

So, mostly I'm going to be focusing on exercise and diet (meaning food) this week. I started my day with fiber one and a yogurt smoothie thing (instead of milk). It was delish. Also, I'm trying to increase my water intake. I am making it a rule that I have to get in my 8 glasses (64 ounces) a day before I can have any diet soda. And that is motivation, baby.

Also, I'm going to make sure to take my multi-vitamin everyday. I've been pretty sporadic with that.

So, here's my new weight loss goals:
By October 30th - 10 pounds lost
By November 20 - 15 pounds lost
By December 11 - 20 pounds lost
By December 25 - 25 pounds lost

Overall, that's a goal of about 2-3 pounds a week. Very doable if I just stick to it. Which I know I can. And I will. :)

Fail

2009-10-02T11:26:00.000-05:00

Goal #4) Have a Happy Birthday (on Thursday), but DON'T overindulge.

Have a Happy Birthday, Check.

Don't overindulge? Fail.

But it was a super wonderful day!

No weigh-in today. Out of fear. :)

Running too fast...

2009-09-29T09:43:00.000-05:00

I had a weird...scary dream last night:

Long story short - serial killer attacked everyone in my house by cutting off their legs with a chain saw and their hands with a kitchen knife. I woke up as me, in the dream, was hiding, trying to keep from having this happen to me.

Now, bear with me on this one, because I don't really believe this kind of...well...crap, but it seems applicable today. On Monday morning, I was listening to the radio and on my daily radio show, I was listening to the lady who decipher's dreams. One of the callers recited the tale of dream where she gave birth to twins - one without legs and one who was blind and deaf.

Turns out, that according to dream people, missing (or in my case, the brutal removal of) legs refers to something in your life that you feel is not progressing the way you want.

Amen. Sometimes dieting is really easy for me - this particular time has been really tough. I'm hanging in there, but the fact that I've been dieting for 2 weeks and lost 1/2 pound is an indication that this isn't a breeze.

Unfortunately, I have no one to blame this lack of progress on by myself. I'm the only one who can "protect myself from the leg hacker," as the case may be. Wish me luck!

Ah, Monday.

2009-09-28T16:19:00.000-05:00

I very well may be the only person in the world who just loves Mondays.

Food stuff is hard for me on the weekends. My main food cravings come out of stress and boredom...so the weekends can be hard. Especially Sunday - when I'm home all day. Begging the world to give me something to distract me from my hunger. Ha.

Anywho, with the exception of some fudge my neighbor made for us (which was SO good I don't even feel bad about eating it), I had a pretty successful weekend with food.

But, it's nice to be back at work, back to my regular schedule, and feeling good.

The goals for week three (which hopefully brings a loss of a pound or more):
1) Drink 50 ounces of water a day.
2) Walk my doggies each morning before work AND after work.
3) Gym 4 days, weights 2 days (TV is not allowed on until AFTER the gym).
4) Have a Happy Birthday (on Thursday), but DON'T overindulge.
5) Don't go to bed at night until my house is at least straightened.

Coming Clean

2009-09-25T09:40:00.000-05:00

Weigh in: well, 1/2 pound down today. Like, seriously? A half pound? I couldn't even get the whole pound? Sad day. BUT, 1/2 pound down is better then 1/2 pound up or 0 pounds down...so, I'll take it.

And, if I'm being honest, I probably fudged my starting weight a tad...or two. On Tuesday I actually weighed 3 pounds more then today..so do with that information what you will.

I wanted to kind of clarify myself to anyone who might be reading (although I'm pretty confident it's just my mom). In my ham shanks post, I told you that I wasn't really a large person. This is true. So, you may ask yourself, what is this girl's problem? Why is she making such a big deal out of losing weight?

Here's a little timeline for you:

Spring 2004: I was getting ready to graduate high school and go to college. I worked hard to lose about 20 pounds before I left for school.

January 2005: I gained the typical freshman...er, 22...during my first semester at college.

March 2005: I tried the Nutrisystem diet. It worked. I had lost all 22 pounds I had gained. That loss lasted all of 10 minutes.

Summer 2005-April 2006: This was a particularly rough period for me. I got to hanging out with the wrong friends and really start using food as a way to deal with stress, anxiety, and as a mode of comfort. This resulted in a 30 pound gain. I was miserable. I had been doing this yo-yo thing for so long. And, here I was, now heavier then I had ever been.

Summer 2006: I went home for the summer and my mom helped me to work really hard to get myself feeling more confident. I lost about 20 pounds and was feeling pretty darn good when I went back to college for the fall semester.

January 2007: I had gained back all 20 pounds. Seriously. I was back to my peak weight. My roommate and I decided that we would go on a diet together. We worked out every day and I quickly dropped the weight again. By March 2007, I was back down about 17 of those 20.

August 2007: I got married. I wasn't at a low weight for myself, but I think I looked pretty darn good. I felt beautiful and it was the best day of my life. Then I gained the "newlywed 35."

April 2008: (Yes, just 8 months later...35 pounds gained in 8 months) I have had it. I can hardly look at myself at this weight. It's the heaviest I've ever been...and I'm worried about what my new husband must think and I have clothes in my closet that I can't even get over my knees, practically. I decided enough is enough.

April 2008-April 2009: I had made it my goal to lose 55 pounds in a year. I actually came really close. In April of 2009, my mom takes me on a girl's weekend and spoils me with a new wardrobe for my new body. We have the most amazing time and I'm feeling so great.

April 2009 - present: I fall back into bad habits. My struggles with binge eating that I thought I had gained relative control over come back to haunt me. I can't seem to stop eating. I eat a lot, I eat in secret, I feel shame, I gain weight.

Today: I am between 15-20 pounds of my lowest weight during the last year, and still 25 from the original goal I had set for myself. All those fantastic clothes my mom bought me? Only about 1/3 of them can still fit. I NEED to stop this cycle, not only for my body, but for my sanity.

So, although I may seem like some lame size 8-10 girl trying to be thinner for no apparent reason...but I promise you that it is more to prove to myself that I CAN do this. That I'm not a failure and that struggling with my weight may have owned the last 6 years of my life...but it doesn't have to own the next 60.

I'm BYU's Next Top Model

2009-09-24T10:06:00.000-05:00

Okay, not really, but I really did get asked to "model" for some campus posters. Here's how it went down:

I was walking into work wearing my brown slacks (okay, let's be honest, they are pretty much the only pair of work pants I have that fit right now...so I wear them a lot) and a long sleeve jewel-toned v-neck shirt. I was walking with a little more swagger then usual...because, well, I've been on a diet for 3 days now, I must look a little thinner (riiiight).

I walked past the large conference room and saw our HR manager sitting there. I gave her the usual head nod (no one speaks before 8am). About 30 seconds later she came into my office and asked me to be in some posters for the employee giving campaign that will be posted around campus next spring.

Heck yeah. I just hope the photo shoot isn't for another couple months. I'll be in prime "model" mode by then. But I'll definitely bring my lucky slacks.

Saran Wrapped Ham Shanks

2009-09-23T09:38:00.000-05:00

Two things you need to know about me before you read the rest of this post:

1) For years, now, I have affectionately referred to my thighs as my ham shanks. They are truly my #1 "problem area."

2) I am not a "big" person. I am between 5'6" and 5'7" and about a size 8 (or 10) depending on the brand and my goal weight should put me somewhere around a 4-6.

Okay, so on Monday, Husband and I went to TJ Max. For the record, we LOVE TJ's...and Ross...and pretty much anywhere you can find a good deal. But, I digress. I found a pair of exercise pants for $10. And, since you can never have enough exercise clothes, I snatched them up. I didn't feel like going through the hassle of trying them on, so I just grabbed a LARGE and figured that would be fine.

I got home and went to put them on...and, lo and behold, it was like wearing saran wrap. Especially over my shanks. And these were the larges. I thought for sure I'd be safe.

Nonetheless, the rest of the night at the gym, I kept turning to my gym bud (Steph) and whispering to her, "I'm SO aware of my pants right now."

I had a little Kim Kardashian going on, if you know what I mean.

As far as my goals for the week go, I'm doing really well. Sticking to the meal plan 100%. Although I hate the crackers I bought...but I paid good money for them, so I will be eating them. I went to the gym last night and did weight-lifting. So that's 2 of my 4 (required) days down with 1 of the 2 days of weights down. I haven't been so good about the card writing thing. I'm hoping to catch up tonight. I haven't missed a walk with my dogs in the morning yet...and they are starting to really get excited about it in the morning. And, lastly, I have not bought any food since my grocery shopping on Monday. Hazahh!

P.S. I got asked to be a MODEL today. More on that in my next post. ha!

Food Plan and other assorted goodies

2009-09-22T09:57:00.000-05:00

One thing is official, I have no idea how to turn a word table into a usable image. So...good luck reading my food plan for the week. SF bar = Slim Fast Bar (cheapest version of a protein bar I could find).

I went to the grocery store last night and got everything I need, so we'll see how this works out for me.

On a different note, I did go to the gym last night and did 40 minutes of cardio while watching Dancing with the Stars and hanging out with Steph. I did get up this morning and walk my little dog-faces (in VERY cold first-day-of-fall weather). And, I did realize that my birthday is 8 days away and there's no chance of losing 10 pounds by then, so I'm amending the birthday goal to 4 pounds. Riiiight....

Week 2...

2009-09-21T13:33:00.000-05:00

Well, last week didn't go as well as planned. No gain on the weigh in on Friday - but no loss. Sigh. It's okay, though, it's a new week! I can either lose, gain or remain. As long as I don't gain, I'll call it a success.

Goals for Week 2:
1) Gym 4 days, with weight-lifting on 2 days.
2) Walk the dogs before work daily.
3) Write cards to those who I appreciate (1 per day)
4) Plan my weekly food plan - post to the blog.
5) Do not buy any food outside of my regular grocery shop (Diet Mt. Dew does NOT count).

Stay tuned for my food plan.

Drop Zone

2009-09-17T11:12:00.000-05:00

I was looking through some photos yesterday that I have compiled over that last 5 years or so. And I've realized one thing: a weight loss yo-yo doesn't even begin to describe the struggles I have had.

I think it's more like this ride I used to ride at Great America in California called Drop Zone (there's a version of this everywhere), but you start at the bottom, excited and ready to go. This is how I feel at my lowest weights. Proud that I had the courage to get there, ready for what's coming next. Then, the ride slowly begins to climb, as does my weight. Until I finally reach the top and I'm looking around nervous and just wishing I was back on the ground again. So, in a matter of months, whooooosh, I'm back down. Ready to start the whole cycle over again.

Luckily, my weight has never gotten really out of control, but a 30 pound swing every year is too much to handle emotionally. I'm hoping that I can keep my feet on the ground after I get to my goal this time.

As far as my goals for the week, things are going really well. I'm excited for my weigh-in tomorrow...although I am retaining a little water since it's...well...that time of the month.

Check in tomorrow to see if I've made any progress. If not, I'll keep chugging along!

Shortcuts

2009-09-16T09:23:00.000-05:00

As I was driving (my 15-minute drive) to work this morning, I was listening to my usual morning show. In the middle of my drive, they cut to a commercial break. In the 3-5 minute break, I heard a variety of commercials for insurance, car dealerships, etc...but I also heared individual commercials for the following: HCG Diet, Sono Bello (surgery free body sculpting), laser hair removal, cosmetic surgery (breasts, specifically), and Weight Watchers.

No wonder no one ever succeeds at diet and exercise. No one has to. We've got HCG (a 500 calorie a day diet...obviously you lose weight on it), body sculpting; everything to enhance, re-shape, and totally alter our bodies. Honestly, I like my body. The proportions aren't perfect. I'm a little short-waisted and I'd like a little...um..."more" on top...but it's my body. I want to treat it well, feed it the nourishment is deserves, keep my muscles strong and fit, and, most of all, feel good in my body. I don't want the easy way out (although I do wish the whole process of dealing with weight and food was simpler).

The "easy" way, as those commercials taught me this morning is by convincing women (and some men) that the way their bodies are naturally isn't good enough and that we need some sort of "help" in changing ourselves into whatever it is that we think they should be.

Well, all I think I should be is happy.

For my one reader

2009-09-15T13:10:00.000-05:00

Well,

Obviously, the fact that I haven't written for months means that I have been failing miserably at everything diet related.

The reasons, you probe:

1) Family Drama
2) Lack of motivation
3) Binge eating
4) Laziness
5) Starting CALCULUS

But, I'm going to work really hard to hit my goal weight by Christmas. My birthday is in a couple weeks, so I'm hopeful to lose about 7-10 pounds by then and keep going on and lose another 15-18 by Christmas.

The reasons:

1) To help me cope with family drama, lack of motivation, binge eating, laziness, school stress, work stress.
2) Increase my feelings of self-esteem.

To life! My 5 goals for this week:

1) Gym it at least 4 days (40 minute minimum)
2) Plan out my food intake and carefully track calories
3) Do dishes/homework/vaccuum/laundry/whatever is being neglected when I feel the urge to eat when I'm not really hungry.
4) Limit myself to pressing the snooze button only ONCE each morning.
5) Get to be before 11:30pm each night.

Yay!

2009-06-30T09:52:00.000-05:00

I had a great swim last night. A great workout in general. I meant to get up and work out this morning...but that didn't happen. Lol. So, I'll be going tonight. No swimming tonight. Just arm weights and cardio. I'm looking forward to it, though, because I'm finally starting to see success. I weighed 2 pounds less today and that puts me at a half pound below my starting weight (see my updated ticker to the right). I still have quite a ways to go, but I'm finally on the right track.
I'm going tonight to get a pedicure with my sister-in-law. My toes are in desperate need of some love and I am excited.
Moreover, I leave for Vegas in 2 days and will get to see and party with my parents. I'm soo excited. I'm also excited that by the time I see them I will be another pound down or so. Phew. I was so concerned about seeing my mom looking the way I did just a few weeks ago. I felt terrible. It feels soooo much better to be taking care of myself and eating right. I can't figure out why it's so hard sometimes - because it is so much better.

4th of July Week

2009-06-29T11:12:00.000-05:00

I had a SUCCESSFUL weekend! I can't recall the last time I did a perfect job sticking to my diet and goals over the weekend, but I did it this weekend. Finally! My weight is down a little bit, but nothing too noteworthy yet. I'm leaving town on Thursday, so here are my goals for this lovely week:

1) Gym at home M-Th with 2 days of swimming and weight-lifting all four days.
2) Work out at least one day on vacation (to make a total of 5 days this week)
3) Buy a couple pairs of shorts to wear.
4) Stick to my diet even while traveling and eating out.
5) Take the stairs instead of elevators as often as possible.

Here goes nothing! I won't be around on Friday to weigh in, but I'll do it next Monday!

Ready for the weekend.

2009-06-26T13:43:00.000-05:00

Well, I'm feeling pretty groovy. Today's weigh-in wasn't particularly eventful (same as the last time I weighed in), but I feel pretty good. As I said in my last post, it's my "time of the month," so I'm pretty bloated. I'm hopeful that once my period is over, I'll lose a few magical pounds. lol. We'll see what happens.
I'm going (at the generosity of my fabulous parents) to Vegas next weekend for the Fourth of July and I really hope to be at least a few pounds lighter by then.
My swim last night was amazing. After a half hour of arm weights (free weights), back weights (machine) and abs, I did 15 minutes on the bike and 10 minutes on the stair climber. Then I swam for 15 minutes. Sooo glorious. I wish I had the stamina to stay in all day. I'm excited to go back again and swim. :D That was a very good goal choice.
I went to the gym this morning as well. Fridays I don't do weights because I only do 4 days a week of weights. So, I did a new machine called the Cyrex (kind of a cross between and elliptical and a stair climber), the stair climber and a cool down on the treadmill. It felt good.
I'm hoping me and Geoff will get to play some tennis tonight as well.
I love to be active. I hope I can maintain such an active lifestyle.

Floaty and Bloaty.

2009-06-25T11:23:00.000-05:00

Well, yesterday was a good food day (despite the fact that I was so much hungrier then usual!). I just ate the food I had planned to eat and not a bite more.

It's my "time of the month," though, so I feel like a whale today (even though my weight was down from yesterday). Oh, well, such is the life of a woman.

Tonight is swimming night at the gym. I'll do the same routine as on Tuesday - weightlifting arms, 15 minutes on the bike and then 10-15 minutes swimming (however long I can stand it). I'm really looking forward to it. And some sauna action.

Just Keep Swimming...

2009-06-24T09:45:00.000-05:00

Well, the gym last night was a whole new kind of adventure - I swam! I started with arm weights and 15 minutes on the bike. Then I changed and jumped in the pool. Swimming is HARD. I only could do 10 minutes. Hopefully I'll build up some stamina in there as time goes by. It felt good to swim, though. The pool was so warm. Then I sat in the sauna for 10 minutes. I would have liked to stay longer, but I started to get a little dizzy, so I decided that time was up.
I also went to the gym this morning. I did leg weights and the treadmill. I was going to also do the stair-climber but got a message from my husband that he was very sick and asked me to come home, so I did, of course!
Anyway, I'm doing well with my goals and feeling the burn. :)

That makes two of us.

2009-06-23T16:18:00.000-05:00

I haven't been around for a little while either. Sorry about that. If I'm not around it's probably a bad sign for my goals (hangs head in shame).

However, since Sunday, I've been great (okay, I realize that that's only 2 and 1/2 days, but it has to start somewhere, right?

Here's my goals for the week:

1) Gym 6 Days, Weight-lifting 4 days, Swimming 2 Days (followed by the Sauna)
2) Go to bed every night with the dishes clean and the house straightened.
3) Get some tanning time in on 2 days (the sun finally came out to play!)
4) Stick to my calorie goals.
5) Use exercise to avoid binging - if I'm tempted to binge, walk the dog.

So far, so good. I'll report in tomorrow.
Amanda P.

P.S. Power to Amanda E for workin' that soda goal. I don't have that kind of strength.

It's Been Awhile

2009-06-23T15:29:00.000-05:00

Wow, it's been some time since I've blogged. My apologies. Quick update: I'm down a couple more pounds, not where I wanted to be, but I'm working on it. I HAVE, however, maintained my goal of no soda pop or carbonation. It has been SO hard! lol. But I'm drinking alot of water now and it feels really good. I think my lack of soda has helped me in a couple of the pounds I dropped. I also go to work earlier, 7am....Which means I go to bed earlier, and for the most part, I feel pretty good each day. And since I go to work earlier, I get off work earlier and have time to go run my errands, or go for walks....basically, I'm more active throughout my day now that I have more time in the evenings. Which feels nice. So I think, slowly but surely, I'm getting closer to my goal!

Must...Have....SODA!

2009-06-12T08:45:00.000-05:00

Man! I never thought that layin' off the soda would be so hard. I didn't realize how much I actually drank it till I made it a goal to NOT drink it. It's proving to be very difficult. But I'm holding strong...even through temptation. lol. I've been replacing my soda with water, and even though I'm craving a little carbonation, the water satisifes just as well. It feels better to be getting more water in my system.
Also, as far as exercise, my Gold's Gym membership should be renewed by Wednesday, so I'll definitely be hitting up the gym before or after work...depending on the schedule I have for work next week. But instead of the gym, as of right now, Allen and I have been going on walks just like I said we would(in between the rain storms of course).
I haven't been eating after 8 o'clock...with the exception of ONE time. But I've been pretty good about getting dinner done and eaten by 7 o'clock. And IF I still want a snack, I make sure it's before 8. After that, it's a big glass of water.
Getting to bed by 11 has been difficult. This week it's averaged around 11:30-11:45. I'm a night owl, so this goal is especially difficult for me and will probably require another week as a "goal" in order to get it under control.

Well, there's the update for now. It's positive for the most part, right?? :)

What a Woman Wants

2009-06-11T11:04:00.000-05:00

Still going strong. Did the morning gym routine at 6am. Today was upper body weights and cardio. My legs are SORE from yesterday's weight lifting. yay. lol. I'll show that personal trainer who needs to pay $30 for an hour. I'll be toned and awesome without his help! I made, it, though. Weight training is done for the week. Just cardio on Friday and Saturday. Phew. Almost sounds like a reward. ha.
For a bit of something less serious and daunting, here is my list of the top 3 things women want:
1) Magic Fairies who clean the house while she's running errands
2) An endless supply of Diet Coke (Mt. Dew, Pepsi, Dr. Pepper)
3) Sunny, beach-worthy days nearly every day.
Feel free to add what you think in a comment. :-)

Hump Day

2009-06-10T09:58:00.000-05:00

Well, Wednesday is here. I still made it to the gym this morning at 6am. I got a pretty good workout in. Today was legs...and my legs are sooooo much stronger then my arms, so leg day makes me feel like I got "more" of a workout. I'm up to 120 lbs on the leg press (I started at 75 lbs). For cardio I did the rowing machine and the stair climber.

Food-wise I'm right on track. Haven't cheated or "snacked" yet this week. I'm excited for the weigh-in on Friday. I'm hopeful that I will not have a massive FAIL like last week. ha.

Unfortunately the weather forecast has not improved and I'm not convinced I'm going to get any outdoor exercise in this week and I definitely won't be able to tan. I think I'll take a class at the gym if I can't work in some outdoor fun. I'm going to see Kelly Clarkson tomorrow, so that should be fun (although I'm pretty sure it's supposed to be an outdoor show...and that will be LAME if the weather is rainy).

Diet-wise things are going well...now if only the weather would cooperate!

Week 2: Off To A Late Start...Again

2009-06-09T17:34:00.001-05:00

Ok, so as previously mentioned, Week 1 didn't go so hot. lol. So here we go trying to attempt Week 2. Which, also might be hard since we are vacationing Friday through Sunday down in Lake Powell. But we'll see how it goes.

Here are this weeks' goals:

1) Continue drinking more water(especially with fun in the sun coming up this weekend, don't wanna be dehydrated). Must drink at LEAST 80 ounces a day.
2) Since my Gold's Gym pass is currently in the renewing stage, I need to do some form of exercise everyday for 30 minutes, even if it's just going on a brisk walk around the neighborhoods.
3) As tempting as it is to snack on junk food on vacations, I'm going to stick to the healthy stuff. 3 square meals a day, with healthy snacks in between to keep my metabolism up!
4) Get to bed no later than 11:00pm. Lately I've been going to bed WAY past 11....and as a result, I've been to exhausted to do anything, especially exercise. So I think getting my 8 hours of sleep in will help me in my weight loss goals.
5) As of today, no more soda pop for the week. I think part of my problem is the amount of soda I take in. Especially the caffeinated drinks. As mentioned in goal 4, I haven't been getting much sleep, so to counteract that, I use the caffeine. SO! More sleep, less need for caffeine...NO SODA this week.

Ha ha! Wish me luck! I will report!

Empowered

2009-06-09T09:26:00.000-05:00

I'm not even sure if I know how to describe it...but I woke up feeling so empowered this morning. I made it to the gym at 6am and did arms/abs and cardio (today was the bike and the treadmill).
I'm super excited to have a nice, long, productive day. The weather is supposed to be CRAPPY all week - so I'm crossing my fingers that I'll be able to get out and do some outdoor activities and tan...but I'm afraid the weather might put a stop to those goals. That would be lame...but maybe I'll take a class at the gym or something instead. We'll see!

Goals, Week 2

2009-06-08T10:07:00.000-05:00

Well, after my lack of success on Week 1, I'm excited to get started with Week 2. Here are my goals:

1) Gym 6 days (weight lifting and cardio 4 days, just cardio 2 days). Also, at least 2 days of physical activity outside of the gym (tennis, frisbee golf, biking, etc...)
2) NO SNACKING (I failed relatively miserably at this last week, so I'm determined to keep it a goal until I can do it!)
3) Switch to morning gym instead of afternoon.
4) Brush my teeth twice a day (I'm good about one, but I need to do two - this is less of a weight loss goal and more of an overall health goal)
5) Spend at least 20 minutes during 2 days tanning.

I'm still going to be drinking my water from last week. Just because it's not a specific goal anymore doesn't mean it isn't something I want to do!

Wish me luck. :-p

Not A Total Loss

2009-06-05T12:08:00.000-05:00

Weigh-In Day: I will admit, I wasn't looking foward to today's weigh in. This week has been difficult in achieving my goals...BUT to my surprise, I actually lost 1lb. I was hoping for 2-3, but 1lb is definitely a start. I didn't make it to the gym this week, but I did alot of walking, and even went on a nice walk with my husband one evening. I consumed more water than I have been before this last week. And I've been cutting down on portion sizes considerably while having small and healthy snacks in between meals. I've also been making more of an effort to eat breakfast in the morning. So I guess I'm noticing a better eating habit beginning to form, now I just need to buckle down on the exercise. I think that as soon as I tackle the exercise routine, I'll see a more significant diffence when weigh-in day comes again. :)

Fail?

2009-06-05T11:55:00.000-05:00

Well, I weighed in today and the results weren't as desired. +2.5. Granted, this all really started on Tuesday, so I can't expect a miracle out of 3 days. It's okay. Maybe next Friday will come with big numbers.

As far as the other goals go I've been doing okay. I didn't get a chance to pre-log yesterday because I was sooooo busy, and this led to some "snacking" that I wasn't supposed to allow. All in all, I'd still call my goals a success. I'm working on determining my goals for next week. So I'll probably post those up tomorrow so I can get an early start on them and try to up my chances for "success" next week.

Rough Day :(

2009-06-03T11:30:00.000-05:00

Amanda E: Ok, so Day 1 was pretty rough for me to be quite honest. I drank water, but only got about 60 ounces. But I guess that's better than my usual 8 or so...And I didn't make it to the gym due to a massive headache that hit me right at 5pm, when I headed home from work. I also planned on packing snacks last night so that I could have them here at work. But when I went to my kitchen to pack snacks, I realized I had no healthy snacks to take. So, after work today, I'm heading to the store to get some! :)
Like I said, Day 1 was rough, but today WILL be better. I already feel it. :) I got a good night's sleep and I'm ready for working out today. :) Wish me luck!

1 day down...

2009-06-03T10:21:00.001-05:00

Amanda P: Well, after day one, I'm feeling pretty good.

100 ounces of water is A LOT. Especially considering I have absolutely no appreciation for water at all. Hopefully my body will appreciate the extra hydration.

I made it to the gym last night and did 30 minutes of upper body weights/abs followed by 30 minutes of cardio (15 stair climber, 10 bike, 5 rowing machine). It was a pretty strenuous workout and my arms and deltoids (shoulders) are sore today - yay! (not the kind of debilitating sore that the stupid personal trainer put me through, however).

I have already had 20 ounces of water this morning and pre-logged my food for the day. I have a busy day/week ahead, so it's kind of nice to have these goals in place to keep me from making lame decisions about food/exercise.

I was tempted to weigh in this morning, but remembered by goal to only get on the scale on Friday morning and held off.

On Your Marks, Get Set, GO! (Week 1)

2009-06-02T12:30:00.000-05:00

Ok, so here we go. My goals for this challenge are to not only lose some weight, but to also start and maintain a healthier lifestyle...which is basically nonexistent at this point. Ha! So here are my five goals for this week to get me going on my long road ahead:

1. Actually EAT breakfast...I tend to have a hard time eating anything for breakfast since I'm in a hurry to get out the door and get to work.
2. Smaller portions at meal time, with healthy snacks in between each meal.
3. Drink at least 72 oz. of water per day. I tend to have a hard time even getting 8 oz. in a day. So I have a 24 oz. water bottle that I'll drink at least 3 of each day.
4. Commit at least 3 days to the gym this week for at LEAST 45 minutes each time.
5. No eating ANYTHING past 8pm. No munching, no snacking...NADA...I'll drink water if I'm a little hungry. haha!

Well, there they are. They are "carved in stone" so to speak...I think they are pretty reasonable and attainable goals. So wish me luck! I'll let you know what happens!

Week One

2009-06-02T12:25:00.000-05:00

Amanda P:

So here goes the beginning of week one.

Here are my five goals for this week:
1) Drink at least 100 ounces of water a day
2) Do weights (increase from 15 minutes to 25) before cardio and decrease cardio from 45 minutes to 30 minutes a day and monitor heart rate (key) everyday.
3) Do not allow myself to even TASTE something that isn't planned on my menu for the day.
4) Pre-log my eating for the day so I am accountable to that plan.
5) Do not step on the scale until Friday morning.

I'll let you know how it goes!